Elucidating Questions

And then Benny and the Jets played

I wasn’t trying to think of you today

But it appears that’s what ended up happening

I’m trying to fill my time with something

Well that was weird

I apparently wished you were here now so hard my phone randomly switched views

Suddenly sideways

Well isn’t that fitting

Isn’t it always suddenly sideways when I come in?

Now am I the herald of bad news

The bad news itself

Or just an innocent bystander with terrible timing

“Innocent”

Ah I’m fucked

Wouldn’t it be nice if this was

Was even partially for me

Twisted beyond belief

Does my figure even resemble them anymore?

I don’t want to do what the machine tells me anymore

There’s too much to sift through by myself

It would have been fine if I didn’t jump the gun?

I would like Love, but the clouds

Teasing things

Floating in

Doing nothing

When their one job is to rain

I wonder what my one job I’m not doing is?

What is this?

Heat

いらない

Don’t you know you can the flames without even trying?

Does the Wind understand me?

Does anyone?

You can’t help me

If you could you would have

Just another accident happening continuously

Tripping over my own good intentions

If I could

Just assume myself somewhere

As someone

There’s so much not happening here

Is this the life of a side character?

Menial and stretching on

Can’t I just decide?

Is what the young one in me wants to say

And the me who is so much older than me years

Just sighs

Am I screaming in a tiny room in my head?

Hey, check, one, two

That one was funny

How do you turn this thing off?

Don’t hush

Oh if only anyone knew

Knew what happens in my head

Is it a masterpiece though?

Maybe in length

Who are you then?

Someday I’ll know someone

I’m always lonely

And alone it just so happens

Maybe it’s best no one knows the madness

If you could be quieter

If you could just let me fade away

And I’m here

I’m here

Wondering what good all this did