Elucidating Questions

Stormy, this eve

A thousand evenings

All different colours

Nothing’s ever enough

Desperate am I to keep myself entertained

Lest the silence creep in

The wind is howling

I hold my breath to see Venus

Tomorrow?

The next day?

I don’t know if I’ll be able to handle both of you at once

My heart is so with the bassline

Is there something else on this Earth for me?

Something besides things?

Collect and collect

Of course I know it won’t fill the void

This void of socialisation

If I spend absolutely all my time on Discord

I can trick my brain into thinking it had socialisation

Or I can trick myself into making my brain accept it as socialisation

Whichever

So insistent

But you’re still hanging around my legs

A game then?

A game of dancing

Wild through the trees

If only I could join you

Become the wind with you

I want to be so many things

I’m always brave

Or is it foolish?

道化師の仮面

I face into uncertainty and feel no fear

But possibility paralyses me

Maybe it’s more like the things I should be afraid of I’ve become numb to

I should be afraid

Instead I just make some more stupid choices

Maybe I’m doing these things because I need the thrill

Cast aside my doubts? Fears? Sanity?

Who could possibly take me now?

Hell, I’m more than any normal person could handle

Hand my fate to the Universe

Save me now!

Jump

You’ll catch me right?

All the times I’ve been stupid

I’m doing my best here

Yes, always

It’s fun to reach out into the expanse and never reach the edge

I feel your heartbeat in music

Pull your strings my friend

So much more than I will ever understand

Yes, from the Earth, up and out

And then land and cast a gaze

Now, now,

Don’t ramp me up

Imagine if I met you

I am only ever at your service apparently

No, he definitely left me here in creationland

If only he knew the depths

It’s always this way though

Fugue-cation

Well, at least I can feel music

Yes, yes, I’m back on Earth

And, yes, besides all you great somethings

I am entirely