Elucidating Questions

I have to find it for myself

There’s no map for me

All these main characters

The me I want to be

I want to take his sadness and hold it gently for a bit

Things he dropped along the way

Stubbornly being okay

Ah well

That suits you

I see these fragments

How I love them

But they’re just pretend

Fragmented figments

And how could the things I do ever really change anything?

I keep wondering what I’ve lost

Taking in all this

Even though no one asked me to

Just cause

I want to be by his side

But I don’t want to create pain

It’s been a while

Since this one played

The streets are surely empty

Everyone is busy playing with it

These hearts I hold

How I got more than one I’ll never know

A cat who does as he pleases

And whatever I am

And .5

Yet I have no presence

How I ended up with so much me that doesn’t exist

Imagine if we could become one

I don’t hate people

Oppositely I love them

But I don’t trust them

I feel like a well mannered creature

I haven’t met anyone I’d let close again

I haven’t met anyone who would come close

So much distrust

Like I’m closest in life to my coworkers and they’re just coworkers

I wonder if this pressure is my heart wanting to hurt

I’m feeling so much nothing right now

Like I’m not enough

Not meeting expectations

All these people doing something

I wanted

To be useful to someone