I wonder how far I’ll go
The number keeps going up but I’m in the same place
And I know it was wrong
How I went about it
Too direct
Me
That little sprinkle of madness didn’t help either
But I feel like I could apologise a hundred times and nothing would change
I thought I was owed him
No
Really I did think it was soul mates or something silly like that
Interesting still that I knew he was married and who to
That touch of psychicness that is so hard to untangle from the rest of the mess
Leaving me going Good god, years later
I thought I won the game at one point
Whatever that means
There’s so much mystery in my life
Maybe I notice it because I’m all alone
I really thought
I thought I had it figured out
And looking back I can only feel pity for that creature who thought their suffering was finally over because they found the answer
If through time I can will myself to just keep going
I would send it out in this moment in all directions
I know it’s hard and we’re struggling and no one notices and no one truly loves us
Familial love and people who I am so conflicted over because I don’t want to disrespect them but I feel very overlooked and underappreciated
Are they friends?
It makes me think I greatly misunderstood what a friend is
Life goes on
We can somehow do it
何と無く
愛を信じて
If I believe in you will you once more grace my skies lovely lady?
To the zeroes indeed
Except he wouldn’t include me
I only wish him peace
Moments where everything falls into place
No it’s where did the guitar go
Neverminding the things that I have to worry about
I wish I could send him my feelings wrapped
Just so he could feel how I do about himself for a moment
Moon’s gone over there
I hope she brings him to me
My beautiful planet
Something to look at with love in his stead
If only I could
Focus my love in a beam
Like some silly non-binary magical girl
I haven’t seen many bittersweet blessings lately
Just pain
Just getting through
Settle the bag on our shoulder and continue
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