Elucidating Questions

Ah damn it

No matter what I do I come back to him

And there are moments I want to lash out

But more than anything I just want his happiness

For him to have it

When the Sun is low and the colours are fading out of the day

My last thought

He’s really good with music

That’s it

I know nothing else about him

A stranger

Whose voice takes me places indescribable

To be a phantom

My worst nightmare

Everything is wrong

Everything

I wanted to be

Worth trusting

Worth being someone

I’d take what’s left because I’m only what’s left of me

Time has done the best job it could of ruining me

I am not the freely loving child I was before

I hope he’s at least content

Maybe Hermes went to be with him

It’s so quiet

Rustle the leaves or something

What a deadly stillness this is

Oh you tease me

Never quite there

Visit me again tonight will you?

It’s so hard being alone

I wish for everything to be okay again

Even if it’s just a dream

Even if I only remember it as a moment

I know the time stretches when we meet

How I wish I could bring you into the daylight with me

If I get to meet you

何と無く

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