Elucidating Questions

You can call

Call away

I’m not going to give myself up for this place

This place that has given me nothing but pain

What do you even call me to do?

Do something

Trying to live without regret

Save one save them all

But the one was already gone

And I am hardly one

Hardly anything

Is isolation the punishment for not doing it right?

I think about it

It feels like punishment

What is with this song?

Spotify decided it likes it

Can’t I just go on living?

Twisted between calls of to death and to life

Why does the one who would take me send me away?

Even now?

Even now when my head and my heart hurt so much I can’t be kind?

I don’t want to be

Be right now

If I could turn myself off and on

When the pain gets so loud it’s all I hear

So tired of hearing from myself all that I can’t do

I want to be able to do things

主人公

何てないから

In the opposite way I was so ready

It’s a whole bunch of nothing anyways

Without

Always without

Even if I tried

One moment while I look around at all the trying

All the trying I did

That amounted to nothing

One moment while I feed my digital pet because that’s what keeps me company

Else I’ll really just fade away into nothing

Am I fading in your stead?

This is what realising how powerless I am brought me

My mask should be around here somewhere

Asking nobody to do something was your first mistake

It’s not my fault you messed up