Elucidating Questions

Why did I even wake up?

The dreams were cruel

A message and then I woke up

I want to be someone who

Who doesn’t feel attached to strangers

I guess there is a trying too hard

I suppose I could listen again

See what it says in the light

Yeah it’s okay

Who knows who this is for

It’s his heartbeat keeping me awake

If only

Crying into the endless nothing

Well it’s not as if we’re both not sticking around

Maybe it’s old writing

Probably the same old thing

His voice always reaches me

I don’t think there is a better for me

Far away

Far away

Useless thoughts

Lost in the wheel

Because I’m only one

And not many

Yet here I am again pouring

Don’t ask for everyone’s opinion then ignore them all or anything

It’s a good song

Just not great

Something you’d write trying to get out of a funk

Maybe I stole it

There’s no music here though

Only endless words

To return to a time when we both laughed

Together or in different places

Don’t you want to return to that time?

Please don’t keep lying to me

About someone who would run to me

When I’m in a world where no one has run to me

Except to tell me my want to leave is selfish

Trying my best

All the time and no one notices

Trying too hard

But I can’t relent until someone sees me

Want to trade lives for a bit?

My poor heart always so prepared to receive you

Foolish thing

Just more to pour out

I wonder if you realise it’s a demand yet