Elucidating Questions

I wish I could envision myself a future

So afraid to have expectations

All my expectations up until now

Have been broken

I wonder if there is a way for me to imagine happiness without taking it away from someone else?

Already with so little I have more than most people

The scope between most and least

Isn’t it presumptuous of me to think of the things I want and me having them?

No, my heart is back at his side

Ever the betrayer

There is nothing left to say

And yet it yearns to say so much

No matter how I tell it we’ve done our best and to let it rest

Oh off it goes

To his side

I suppose

There’s no where else for it to go

I don’t know why it feels at home there

I’m not going to pretend that someone who will never look my way is somehow

Anything like one

We meet again Sol

Right in my face

I keep running

Like I’ve got something to run to

But he’s firmly behind me

Regardless of hearts

Hearts don’t always get what makes sense to them

Hearts don’t always get love and understanding

I’m not sure what I’ve been doing

Rather I don’t know my own motives

I wish I did

The reasoning

Doesn’t make sense

Even though the story continues

Even though it’s over

Never even started

Remember when I saw the future and mine was the only one that didn’t come true?

Tomorrow’s coming anyways

Can’t you stop telling me to do something I used to do and stopped because being disappointed hurt too much?

Believing leads to disappointment

Is there really a future where I’m not alone somewhere?

Really

Depending on a stranger to show you kindness

Foolish me

I wouldn’t expect such a thing from anyone again though

If I could I would withdraw my kindness

But as it happens to flow

Maybe someone else can see a future for me

There is nothing wrong with needing love

If I say it enough times

Will it become true for me