Elucidating Questions

Do good recklessly, eh?

I’m sorry I get frustrated that there is absolutely no benefit to me doing good things

It’s not that I want something from them

It’s more like I need some sort of assurance that what I’m doing matters

I start wondering what the point of doing good in a vacuum is

It’s not even like I do good things for my own sake

I just do them because that seems like the right thing to do

But I have been living my life with no assurance whatsoever

Well besides from all you watchers

It’s hard to know I’m doing the right thing

It’s hard to know to keep doing things when the general consensus on me doing things is

Meh

In these moments when I’m not dreaming I wonder how I could ever believe these messages I can’t even prove are real?

Not that you didn’t immediately send me one

Sol

You really are too close

I do wish I could make a difference

Something beyond

Meh

Why am I nothing?

I try to do good but it doesn’t seem to make any difference

A single grain of sand on a beach

I want to be