Elucidating Questions

Sunset Jesus

That one made me laugh

As we laugh at the parallels

And avoid the big problem

And maybe I’m just that,

Not trying to start a new religion

Not trying to be a god

Just trying to fill this place with something that might convince someone

Let’s say

Something that got its own broken beliefs

And wanted to write their own story

If it tells anything

Let it be that it reaches the eyes of those with

Maybe they’ll feel something

It asked who would tell my story as I faded into the night

I said Me

Because of course I did

That’s not a monumental task at all

I feel like I know more now than when I started

I think there is some progress there

Granted I’m not going to read through it all to check

I definitely feel like a sacrifice

I feel like the only way to make a difference is to die

And I am, in fact, afraid

Terrified

Faith is a hard thing to have when nothing has ever been concrete

Fleeting, uncanny moments

Things I can’t explain to anyone else

Like oh yeah I was listening to the Owl and then an owl flew by hooting

Which was uncanny because no one knows who the Owl is

Only me and these beings I’ve shared my secrets with

Or when I’m feeling drawn to a spot in the sky and then a shooting star happens

Or when the Sun grabbed my shoulder and I looked up and there was a rainbow of fire

They all have this Timing

I feel like I’ve stumbled and landed between realms sometimes

I do not know what I am

I know I don’t have any real power

I am but a squishy flesh thing on strings led by great beings

I’m not here to make anyone worship anything

Though Sol certainly wouldn’t mind if you did, he’s just as needy as I am

I just want to document my life on this Earth as I am

I’ll die when he tells me it’s time

If he’s still waiting for me