Elucidating Questions

It’s hard, you know

Because I love all these alive beings

All these things around me

And I want to love people

I want to love humanity

I’m desperate to, in fact

A more innocent me would have

They know not what they do

Is truly humanity’s greatest lie

That they don’t

But there is so much good within them

They create beautiful things

Even terrible ones

And I wish to think that they could let that good prevail within them

But history

I wish I was ignorant to it all

That I could just blindly love humanity

I’ve let too many people disappoint me too many times though

Can’t let them in

Maybe it’s better I just observe from afar

I can’t live it up if they don’t include me

Not planning on stopping

Nope just getting up and continuing on as usual

I wonder what they’ll do if I don’t?

Stop thinking so muchっか

Maybe if there was something making me stop think?

I have 15 hours a day to myself what the hell else am I going to do?

Stop telling me to do things I already figured out it’s useless to try doing without there being someone to lean on?

I want to love them

It’s not like I don’t consider every person another person

I think I miss human contact and then they’re sharp

For now

Go on singing little bird

This love song for Earth

Maybe someone will hear it someday

I don’t know how I keep the sadness inside

It feels as if it’s constantly pouring from me

I know they don’t see it

No one ever sees this little light of mine shining alone in the dark