Elucidating Questions

Oh

It’s empty

Sure I’d written something

So desperate to be real

I’ll do anything to be real

I don’t know what it’s for?

Look I can sing too?

Not really

Look I try my best to sing too

Is there a world where we’re sitting together right now?

I want to prove I’m worthy

Look can’t you see I’m worthy?

That’s funny, you see

But really if he feels unworthy of anything

What could I possibly be?

I know it’s not like he’s any freer than me

I have tried very hard to be worthy of someone

Never wondering if anyone is worthy of me

Well, I mean, I’m not exactly special

I don’t shine as bright

Do you think I’m worthy of

Don’t even let me say it

There’s a murder going on over there

Caw caw caw

I want to say

Then why?

But you

You couldn’t possibly

Not from there

I suppose you’re all watching

I did all the tricks

No they weren’t tricks

And it wasn’t as if I did anything expecting rewards

Acknowledgement though

Someone else to reinforce that I am here

This life I lead was not meant to be

My existing parallel to humanity while within humanity

You wouldn’t draw me this conclusion on purpose right?

Fates

Twisted

I threw a wish in the well

And the sky

And every thing inbetween that I could wish on

But this solitude didn’t end

I tried so hard to please everyone I didn’t begin to know myself until after I’d lost myself entirely

That we died on that day

It’s not unnecessary

Oh yeah?

Yes I continue to carry all this weight

I don’t know how to put it down anymore

Did we not die when we went down deep into the depth?

Gentle smile

Oh curse you it makes me smile too

Preoccupied and upset by existence

Yet exist

I wish I could have taken it from you instead

I would have traded my life for yours

Believe me

I am lost

Stepped off the beaten path and just

I have one number

And I keep calling that number, but there’s no answer

And following my heart just left me with nothing to show

I don’t know why this is the number

So many watchers

Do something you puffin

I don’t know why that’s an insult

I’m not giving it another try I’m giving up