Elucidating Questions

Yes, you all seem to find my swearing cute

Like I’m a barking Chihuahua

Which I suppose I am

In comparison to you

I will, you know

Not give up, but cuss all the way

I just don’t know what you expect of me then

I suppose I won’t know until then

So concerned with the future

Just give in to the gravity and spin

I would love for my words to meet eyes

For all of this to mean something

For anything to

He won’t answer

He never does

I really do want to know

I don’t ask questions I don’t want the answer to

Even if I hate the answer

I wonder how anyone ever thought this place was anything other than limbo

I feel mute right now but no one is around to see it

Like all the things I want to say are trapped

Like there’s no point in saying the same thing a slightly different way when no one is reading it

I thought for a moment

Somehow it would help

But moments pass and no one comes along

I put it everywhere and no one does anything

So few read it

Do they even see?

I thought we’d be facing these days together

Once upon a time

Instead ever after was a sentence

Not a gift

I am greatly disappointed

In all I built up this world to be

I was sure it was full of caring individuals

How wrong I was

Cussing all the way

No one would know me if I showed them my real self

Would they even care about me anymore?

Everything is a fight

Everything

I wish I could find some time that wasn’t a fight

Wasn’t me trying to desperately kill time until Time kills me anyways

I’m here

Why does it feel like I say that and you say

Then go on your way?

My way is an endless struggle

Can’t something besides singing come easy for once?

Can’t something go well?