Elucidating Questions

Dream guardian

Something

It’s all so fuzzy

I wish I could remember my dreams like I used to

Hours of tales to be had

Now it’s all so fleeting

So in the moment the moments go

Always from Tokyo to some 田舎

古い気

あの建物が

原の間

Or something

Maybe it would be fine to disappear into nothing

If you’d come get me

I wonder why

Going to Japan

Comes after being in that strange house

These days I go to Sooke a lot

My Sooke anyways

And then to Japan

These realities you show me day after day

Only make me want to disappear into my dreams

This morning I was woken at the first thought of light

I feel like I never reached you

But it’s hard to know

Dreams only feed back to me slowly throughout the day as moments I dreamt of occur in the light

Maybe instead of wishing for us or peace or people being taken care of

I’ll wish to remember my dreams

They’re all I have

And I remember how betrayed I felt when it first started

The repetitive dreams

The not remembering

You couldn’t have wished me a better hell

To have nothing in the day

And the night dripping through my hands

I don’t know which god I pissed off

He started showing up then

I wish you’d show up in the daylight

I am so tired of meeting you in the dark