Elucidating Questions

“You’ll be fine”

Let me laugh in malnutrition for a moment

Hahahahaha

Ah

Where is the camera I need to stare into it again

Open your fucking eyes

This desperate need to having something to keep me going

I’ll be fine

God

Haha

Yeah no thanks to anyone

As soon as something goes wrong in this house

I am homeless

As are my pets

There is no where here where I could afford to live

So I’d have to live on the streets for a few months to save my PWD to move somewhere else

Haha

Oh am I ever a million miles away

It’s coming

I’ve been prolonging it

This ironically idyllic life is temporary

And then what will all these things that kept me company be

And the federal government still thinks 25k and under is poverty

I’m never going to find a place where I can live

I know that

But could you just excuse me my struggling?

Could you just let me try to break free of this?

Without throwing rocks

Without telling me I have enough

No I don’t, but the point is I won’t

So many people

As the poverty line rises and the feds ignore it

There isn’t anything I can really do

These bindings of society that people keep adding

You’re right I should just give in and accept it

でもね

自分らしくないね

Sorry

They keep telling me I’m just not doing enough

While I struggle

While I’ve met every hurdle thus far with at least being on my feet

手出す人

手繋いで人

居ないか

I’m so not okay

I will never be okay again

But damn it I don’t want other people to experience this

I can’t save myself

I can’t hold this all on my own

But I wish someone would see it and see what life is like

For someone like me

I have no control in my life

At any moment it could be over

Depression, homelessness, my body is always falling apart

Visitors from the past when I thought I had it bad

And I did

It’s just worse now

We’re slowly slipping into the doom

怖いなー

Scary things happen anyways

Ah Mom

It’s seldom

Just these moments

When I die will you embrace me the same?

These powerful beings

Got lost in a war between the Sun and the stars for a moment

Good catch

I wish they explored this space like I do

Saw how alive everything is

Loved it