Elucidating Questions

I’m drinking again

Maybe I’ll just start again

Why did I stop?

This is the best I’ve felt all day

If you’re going to subject me to the sounds of people being together

And and tell me people are going to Vancouver

To go enjoy themselves

She said

I haven’t been to a concert in a while

I thought hoot hoot-

He’ll never come here

Do you know I actually bothered to check the tour locations this time?

He wouldn’t even allow me the possibility

I wish I could be as worthy of being seen as he is

How many people besides me think of him enough to say hi in a day?

Even so

Nothing

I want to drink until I can’t remember anymore

Who cares if I kill my liver I’ll be dead in 10 years anyways

Hanging on for nothing

Literally nothing

Why did I have to think of him?

I’m sure I’ll come crawling back

Say some sweet thing

That I mean until I realise that the number of sweet things I’ve said versus heard is

Why am I kind to these beings?

傷だらけで

Without being wanted

I pretend the silence is kindness

Just like with him

Ah

I don’t want to follow a disinterested man around the internet trying to get his attention again

I wonder how he’s doing

He’d probably hate me now

I loved him most

Unattainable

But it’s not as if there really is an “attainable”

There never was

I just pick the most unattainable

チャレンジ好きか

Maybe I just like to put my heart through pain

Even so

I want to

You may never hear me screaming but I want to

One more time before I’m gone I want to set my eyes upon your form

For whatever reason

My heart is set on it

Won’t you come back here just once?