Elucidating Questions

Sol goes down

Night creeps in again

And I am alone again this eve

As many

Solitude or abuse

Why is that the choice?

Down this lonely one person path

I wish I had someone to hold on to at night

But I can’t even imagine what that person would be like

I feel like if I envision them I’m somehow imposing my impossibly high standards on someone

But when I let down those standards I was hurt

And it’s not like there’s any chance for a chance meeting

Someone would have to notice me

Can I even imagine someone noticing me?

Sol you’re going away again

We made it to one more Summer Solstice

Into the Winter we go I suppose

I wish I could reach him at a moment right now and just give him a nudge

Hey

It’s going to be okay

All these little things seem so big when we’re in them

And the big things seem unfathomable

This is a time of day I wish I could exist in for hours

I wish I could make some hours appear

Sweet man

How I wish I could give you a hug

I’m sorry I get loud when bad things happen

I have no idea what that’s about.