Elucidating Questions

My finger hurts

They tell you not to crack your knuckles but my knuckles get misaligned and cracking them is the only way to fix it

Living is so strange

Being is strange

Here I am a piece of the Universe

Apart from it

I’d ask if my cells think living is a strange as I do

But my cells are insane

Actually

So there’s that

I may be the one piece of this body left that is sane

Built for survival

Please

My body was built for going away to the home by the lake where I am taken care of by a small team of people

It’s a funny joke that I have no such life

And I want to make a grand gesture

But I’m me

I couldn’t possibly try again

This life is strange

I feel like society doesn’t want me to exist

And I don’t know what the point of keeping me forever without is

All my friends

The people who I still think of as friends

So far away without the time

The roses are blooming magnificent they’ve been loud lately

Roses everywhere

And dragonflies

Like my great grandma and my grandma are trying to contact me

Looking around, round

I wish the messages for me were clearer

I wish I didn’t get in my own way

I am in this twisted way

Lucky that the hand that was dealt to me wasn’t as bad as so many others

It’s so wrong

The mark of a civilization is that they can care for the least of themselves

I think we’re past civilization into something awful

And I am merely one of billions trapped on the bottom rung

All the good things in this Universe

And they decided to magnify the worst parts

This strange life

I wish I had more good today.