Elucidating Questions

I don’t have anything that could fix what he’s going through

When Supi died I wanted time to stop

I wanted my mind to stop playing me her final moments over and over

When I went to work and broke down crying they acted like I was being ridiculous and I felt shame for my grief

I locked it away

Telling other people around me to take their time grieving I just bore the moments of pain and had no one to talk to

I tried to make it go away

When my sister died I wanted time to stop

But I had to keep making the little money I do to keep living

And I am still not on the other side of this tunnel of grief

I want to go somewhere and wail my grief to the Moon

Where no one can hear me

I want none of this for him

I want him to be able to express his grief

Even if he wants to hide it away like so much other

I want him to have a safe place to cry

I don’t want him to cry

But sometimes we have to

Pets can be so ignored by their owners

Ending up as furniture that they just clean up after

So few get to experience the genuine love they have for their humans back

I said that the way people treat animals reflects their soul

Maybe that’s why my heart so stubbornly believes that under all the inaction lies a good person

Regardless

To love her from the moment you saw her to the last time you saw her in this Time

It’s powerful

It means something

She felt loved by you

She felt spoilt by you

I say these things with certainty

I have seen many a lost pet in my time

Always, my loves,

The pain is unbearable

But every moment leading up to that moment will come clean

There will be a time you won’t dance around their memory

As if it is too hot to touch

They lived because you loved

And they knew it and will watch over you

And when they think you’re ready they’ll send someone else for your amazing love to dote upon

Imagine the new friend the Universe is only thinking about now

Imagine them becoming real not just for themselves

But for you