Elucidating Questions

What’s your favorite thing about yourself?

What is my favourite thing about myself?

What is my favourite thing about myself…

My god

Ask me a harder question, I only drip self loathing I’m so soaked in it

But I suppose the challenge is that

My favourite thing about myself is that I unapologetically keep myself sane and the Universe seems to approve

Because I’ve done some pretty crazy things to keep myself sane and it’s always been like

Oh let me rescue you from homelessness

Or not being able to pay rent

My favourite thing is not the Universe rescuing me

Though

Thanks Universe, love you, baby

But that I know what I need

And I get it

And fuck the consequences

Even if the consequences appear to be me being rescued

Again, thanks, Universe

I do know what I need

That whole “you don’t get what you want you get what you need” bullshit

I do know what I need

Some people don’t

I keep going

I take care of myself however I can

Take the opiates when I need them

Like today

Fuck pain tbh

But, you know, no one else really has my back

No one else cares if I keep myself sane or not

But damn I do it anyways

I guess keep on keeping on me

Also, if I didn’t say it enough, thanks for being one of the few having my back often Universe

I don’t know why you do

But I’m grateful