Elucidating Questions

I will never see my body type as a model

Even the “plus size” models don’t have a stomach like I do

I never know what anything is going to fit like

So I just stopped caring if things fit me or not

My body is not the model type

My size 6 feet that have to wear size 8.5 shoes because they’re so wide

My short and stubby fingers

This me

I’ve never seen myself

Anywhere

Non-binary actors are almost all masculine presenting.

Leaning

Masculine is such a bad term it’s a look

They’ve got this look

I definitely don’t

I can never tell whether I just am a strange shape

Or if my shape is ugly

So no one who looks like me ever gets noticed

I wish it wasn’t the former

I wish it wasn’t

And when I look at myself in the mirror I would ignore me too

Well I wouldn’t

But I see why they do

I can’t even be the ugly friend because I have this stupid intelligence that betrays I have depth

And no one wants that

I wish it was possible to be like

You send me $75

I write a poem

But I’d just keep doing it for free

And no one would pay $75 for a poem

Maybe

$33 a poem

Yeah I like that better

I wish my face could sell it

People like giving pretty people money

I’d write 4 poems a day

I wish I could go on strike

But I’m just going to keep creating

On it goes

It’s never good enough to sell

I’m not good enough to sell