Elucidating Questions

Today there was an older man

And he was having trouble hearing what the coupons were for

And I tried taking a breath to calm my own frustration

Called for back up on cash

And then pulling one of them out and pointing to the words I was explaining to him as I was saying them

Thinking it would be helpful for him to see the words I was saying

He interrupted me saying, “Fine, I’ll read it later, sometimes you just need a little patience“

And I was struck

I thought my taking my breath to slow myself down and calling for backup so someone else could take the person behind him and showing him every word I was saying was being patient

I’ve been stuck on this all day

I literally put on my patient face and went about making it as clear to him what I was saying as I could

And I swear people are always annoyed with me because I talk too loud but customers can’t hear me

I also know when I’m articulating properly and when not

And I don’t feel comfortable being forced to take off my mask for hard of hearing people

People were coughing up lungs all over the fucking place today

Disgusting humans going out when they’re creating fluids

Sorry that was my alien brain talking

The one that is terrified of my puny broken human immune system

But how could I have been more patient?

How could I have

I don’t know

The only words I would have been telling him were words that were written on the coupon so I pulled it out to show him

The words he couldn’t hear

I’m lost

Totally lost

You think you’re just playing a part

I’m constantly trying to fit myself through these hoops of incessant expectations of my customer masters

My day is spent being under estimated

I hope my overlords appreciated the answers to the servey I lied on

You seriously think I’m going to enter my employee number and tell you whether I “understand and believe in the mind the brand and goals” honestly?

I’m not fucking stupid you moochers on society

God

Trapped in retail hell and going down swinging

And people need to learn that lines happen and are being dealt with to the best of our abilities

Do you honestly think I am keeping you in that line up for fucking shits and giggles?