Elucidating Questions

I see something in you that resembles me

Resembles him

I never thought a celebrity death would hit me so hard

I want you to be content

Not with your music

May you always have some new high to hit there

But

It’s in those screams

That same something that makes you feel like you’re nothing compared to others

Maybe it’s gone

Maybe I’m writing to a you much younger than now

Maybe I’m sending out energy across time to moments you needed it

But still

There is pain in genius

I saw it in my uncle too

I wish I could interrupt every dark thought you’ve ever had

It’s hard to reconcile

When someone who has so much still doesn’t feel like they belong in this world

It’s hard to then stand looking at myself

And I wonder why I’m still sticking around

For all intents and purposes I am a forgotten being who will go on

Much like I have

Don’t be a ghost

Keep your precious people close

You have these depths

Shown so clearly in your work

In how music comes from you

I still wonder so many things

That little lizard was sunning in front of me

I wish I could look at you like I do them

They are invasive but I feel no ill will towards them for the circumstances of their birth

They did not ask for this life

I wonder if I did

A dandelion blooming through the cracks of the patio

A lizard just crawled into a space in the wall

This

The contrast between us

I always hated this imbalance

I feel like your face was in my dreams again last night

I wish I knew what that means