Elucidating Questions

I wish I had some huge words left to say to you

Some great speech in my mind prepared

Beyond just saying you have this beautiful light to you

And I think she was on go something with onigiri theory

That people have good parts that can’t be seen by themselves

But are seen so clearly

By others

I don’t want you to think that all you’ve done is nothing

So what if it’s all just some fluke?

For whatever reason you are you

That whatever reason doesn’t mean you haven’t worked hard

It just also means other people were pushed aside for you to get there

But you’re definitely not a loser now if you ever were

Maybe it’s time for you to just go and recognise how normal your life actually is

Compared to others who are far more down that road you’re on

You managed to hit that medium place

And all this something

When the lyrics say listen to your heart it flies

Away away

The gravity of whatever you are has me trapped

I feel like I was supposed to do something

Who knows what that was

Returning to that grind tomorrow I feel that

Fracture between what you are and what I am

If I could come within earshot of you I’d just sing and then hope that would communicate something

I’m so bad with words

They are in my mind

They tumble through a sieve of doubt and anxiety and fear and trauma

What comes out

What even does come out?

I don’t know I never talk to anyone

Can we switch places for a day?

Kidding

When all the mess of life is pushed aside

My heart definitely beats for you

For whatever reason

I don’t think I’ll ever know

I’d almost rather you turn out to be some terrible person so I don’t have to feel so guilty for loving you

Oh I had hope for a moment then

But then I looked at myself and remembered I died and that’s not me anymore

I mourn that innocent me that could love you shamelessly

This after image of me

Truly just a ghost the world is trying to forget

Some strange after effect of a glitch in the Universe

I’m here

I am trapped here

Never be trapped

Be free