Elucidating Questions

Classic

I didn’t say that prove I said that

Scrolls up and reads words again to make sure I didn’t misunderstand somehow

Oh look there are the words clear as day there they are I didn’t make up things someone said

Funny how when there’s a conversation log that happens

Mystery really

People have been telling me my whole life I’m delusional

Why?

Because it’s clear when I am delusional

Like I definitely was delusional when I was psychotic

That’s

Uh

How it goes

But when there is proof it always seems to point that I haven’t “misinterpreted” reality

It’s fine to disagree

But these people seem to actually be the delusional ones and they scares me

Because before I was delusional

Right?

I was the delusional one

But as time goes on realising there seems to be this solid majority of humans that are just insane

That’s terrifying man

Did we poison humanity out of our DNA?

Other animals

We see them

They seem to have the same capacity for caring that humans sometimes possess

Right?

So it’s a state that’s natural

Or is it something that came along afterwards?

Chicken and the egg except it’s actually unanswerable

Obviously the egg came first the chicken was inside it it mutated from some other thing.

But this

Which predates the other?

Kindness or malice?

I think about our development from cells

They were always eating eachother

Herbivores came after carnivores when you see it like that

But the malice

The lack of ability to see things from another person’s point of view

I’m so tired of meeting people who want me to suffer and having to see their point of view

Frankly it terrifies me

That whole turning the other cheek thing

I’ve done it my entire life and the space around me has crumbled into this after image of what I thought society would be

And now I can’t stand up for myself in the loosest of terms

I’ve been a doormat

They tell you to just go along because it’s better than making a scene and I am telling you right now, from experience, that is not true

They are lying to you to keep their peace

Not yours

Insanity

I know it well

But even in my insanity there was always a part of me that knew I was crazy

Do they know they’re crazy?

Do they know they’re insisting insanity upon the world

Like pouring gravy over cotton candy

Which would also be insane

Awake in my madness watching all the other little crazy people running around like they aren’t

Hazy skies

We’re such a strange species.