Elucidating Questions

I get $1500 a month on disability

Every month

My rent is $900

I’m expected to fill in the gaps

Food costs $70 every two weeks

And I’m pinching every penny

My heart medication is $80

I need the distillate that I unwillingly pay $115 a week for

Food for the animals approximately $130 and I need my animals this is non negotiable

I’m not sure if you’re seeing the problem yet

My job

I can’t rely on my health

Depending on my ability and sick and vacation pay (I’m out of sick pay for the year in end of May)

Sometimes $400 for two weeks

Sometimes $100

And then comes the other spending

Disney+ because I need something to be playing in the background or I will lose it

$45 for my phone

Because it’s not feasible to not have one

Door Dash when I’m tired of having chicken pot pie or lasagna (microwaved)

Too much

But damn am I tired of microwave food

Things that keep me sane like yarn for crochet

Really, from this point on,

It’s keeping me sane or trying to keep me together

Nicotine keeps me sane but thanks to taxes now costs $65 for two weeks instead of $50

$120 for massage

$40 for chiropractor

Once ICBC runs out I’ll need $90 per session of kinesiology and ideally it would be twice a week

A pipe dream

I can’t even pretend to afford the chiro and massage regularly

My disability tax credit is around $1000 once the feds are done taxing my brains out

Because apparently I can make $21k a year and still owe $1000 in taxes

The numbers nightmare I’m faced with every day

The amount of time my bank account hits 0

Numbers stress

Constantly

Nights of just sitting on the couch hungry

Because I don’t have anything but exactly the amount of meals I am allowed and screw lunch and snacks

And each year it gets worse

And I’m not just talking about inflation or them taxing some other thing

I’m talking my physical health gets worse

Some other added cost

The government doesn’t think I benefit from my heart rate being 120 instead of 160

It probably won’t think I benefit from any of the other things my body is going to come up with to have wrong with it

The government

Triumphantly

Declared a disability benefit

Funded as a lump sum payment once a year that works out to $200 a month

In a good place

Not even a perfect place

Just a decent place

Disability benefits would be handled at one level of government

And I wouldn’t be working

Except for maybe a 4 hour shift once a week because I need to work or

Once again, if my weary mental health hasn’t been obvious yet

I will go insane

People say this

I don’t think they quite grasp what going insane does

I’ve been insane

It’s fucking great until reality starts creeping in

The things a sick brain clings to

It’s only when they start being proven wrong

Clinging

I just don’t think people know

COVID and they decided that min $2k was needed to survive

And then rent tripled

And food doubled

And these fucking clowns still grin their sick grins and pat eachother on the backs for giving disabled people

People with fucking living costs

$1500 at provincial level

And maybe another $400 a month from the feds

Thank you for coming to my Ted talk

Eat the rich

Overthrow the government

Fuck capitalism