Elucidating Questions

Curse these imperfections

Curse this want to be happy

Spent myself into a situation

Why?

I’m terrified of tomorrow

Not sure what I’m supposed to do now

And the rain seems to be falling down

I don’t know if you’re going to help me this time

Is it believing or stupidity?

Is doubt all I have?

The Sun has a halo

Rainbow halo

I need some help

Again

What a surprise

I’ll just beg and borrow more until I’m blue in the face

I’m supposed to have control of myself

I’m supposed to keep this together and live with nothing

But I

I’m just teetering on the edge of madness

One more moment of joy please I beg

You say you already showed me it all

How could that even be true?

Gods help

And it all costs money

Just one moment of feeling like a person whose needs deserve to be met

And now I’m in this situation

Please?

I’m begging you

Just like I always do