Elucidating Questions

What does “having it all” mean to you? Is it attainable?

My vision of “it all”

Is me living in a single story, small, house

With my various creatures

With enough money to care for them

And myself

No rent

Being able to buy things when I want them

I don’t want to be making million dollar purchases

I want to be able to afford my rent after spending $200 for fun

Rather so my mental health doesn’t plummet

Or just not have any rent

If I could eat when I’m hungry

Eat what I want

Afford my medication without it being half my pay cheque

I would have a cleaner and a cook

Only because I struggle so much with both and I miss home cooked food

Never another unflavoured TV dinner

But me having it all

Would require everyone else having it too

Though perhaps it everyone lived more like me this poor planet could sustain that

I wouldn’t be able to find happiness surrounded by suffering

The pieces of peace I attain now are almost certainly a defence mechanism so I don’t lose my mind again

If this “all” also had close and caring communities I wouldn’t object

Ah fantasy

Now I shall go back to being short on rent