Elucidating Questions

Over and over and over again

Thank you for writing it so I had something to feel when it happened to me

Not thanking you for feeling the feelings

Raw is right

And at the most strange moments

And I swear I’ve dreamt of her every night since she passed

But I can’t remember what she says

Those precious words I’ll never hear again

She was the only one in my family who accepted and used my pronouns and respected my being non-binary

And now she’s gone

Just like that

And her boyfriend is free to go kill another woman

It should be murder

But it’s not

I don’t want justice

I want to prevent it from repeating

The only thing that could fix this is her being back

Back here

Wherever she is

Mel wherever you are

I miss you so much

I wish I had better things to tell you

Things that would reach you

Ashes now

Just ashes

If only love could do so much more

Goodbye again for now