Elucidating Questions

God, you tell someone to take others into consideration

Especially around aging and death

And they’re like it’s not that deep

Sorry, do you go up to people with aging grandparents/parents and say

Look how old they are!?

Do you?

Just for clarification

This man loves this dog second most in the entire world but let’s point out that she’s getting old

For fun

But also my sister just died and I’m sorry

My love

I can’t be fucked today

You don’t need some poor disabled LGBTQ2S+ type human standing up for you

Your bank account does that

So apologies

I’m done with it right now

Like it even matters to him

Presumptuous to consider it could

If his sister died there would be thousands of people holding him up in his time of need

I don’t hope for anything of the like

I’m just saying

Pulling my sorry ass into the ring for some famous rich white boy

Yeah not today

Babe

I’ve been very me today

Claws and all

We’re taking turns

Like a slowly spinning sphere

One part me

One part some other me

But decidedly

I think people should be standing up for me right now

At the moment I don’t have much fight in me

There is too much sorrow

Too much loss

Too much life, the universe’s most precious element, being wasted

With last breaths

I don’t want to think about someone else being as sad as I am right now

But, I don’t know,

If there’s any truth to the insanity I’d watch it.

Keep telling your loved ones they are important, needed, and loved.

In the end it’ll never be enough.

Words are as light as feelings are heavy

And even the ink blackening the page does not portray

The weight as you’re pulled under again

Sometimes you say goodbye over and over and over again