Elucidating Questions

What strategies do you use to cope with negative feelings?

I write

This is my coping method

Write all the terrible things

The things I used to say about myself but people told me to stop

So now I just write them in secret

All the moments I want to be angry

Put them in the net

I can feel the feeling without someone telling me it’s wrong to feel that way

Like I don’t already know

Always I’ve had these big unspeakable feelings

The humans I have met don’t like feelings

Bottling it up led to ..

Eh

Some things

So now it goes here

I thought I had murdered one of my piggies and wrote that here

Only to find out hours later she was fine and to see what I’d thought of myself

It’s a thought experiment

It’s a journal

It’s my mute therapist

It’s poetic

Raw and awful

Trigger warning for the entire thing but unapologetically

If someone took the time to read it all the may know me

And it all started with a psychosis and the intrusive thought “write through the panic”

Minds are wild like that.