Elucidating Questions

I wanted to be pretty

But I wasn’t the ugly duckling

Just ugly

I watched numerous teens glow-up

And then watching the tiktoks became unbearable because it wasn’t me

So I adorn my body with cute things to hide the ugly

Even if I didn’t have an autoimmune disease I’d still wear it because it hides my face

People are nicer to you when they can’t tell if you’re ugly

It’s just the truth

When you’re pretty good things happen for you

Well, not all the time

There’s always a certain percentage of people that miss out

I’m in that percentage in most places

So I feel for them

Being the one that doesn’t fly is hard

Leave the nest she said

I’m pushing you out so you’ll fly

If only she could see me now

Yesterday was my birthday

And I tried again, in vain

Why not

But some things went okay

I kind of wish the me of yesteryear had just put all our money into lottery tickets or something

I feel like I have a better chance of winning the lottery than the government paying disabled people enough to live off of

When the only answer to the problem is “just don’t be disabled”

I feel like me calling it unfair is an understatement

So many unfair things

I have to try to make the future better