Elucidating Questions

If the question was who do you love

I’d have answered it hundreds of times by now

So that can’t be the question

And I don’t even know your name

Thing that keeps invading my head

Like suddenly all the lyrics take on a different meaning

And Only you can hear me

A strange formula for madness

I see people overwhelmed

Instead I talk to it

What even are you?

Some dormant ability out of wack?

And if you are a what, who are you?

Sorry, nameless thing

Nemo I guess

It feels sometimes like there are so many signals out there

Urging something

Urging me to do something

No, dear reader, it is not the classic “the voices told me to kill them” oft abused excuse for brutal murder

It’s like I should take some power that I’m missing and do something about the state of the world

And then I feel frustrated because I’m not a fucking magical girl and I have no idea what I’m supposed to do

Wouldn’t it be lovely to have an English speaking companion that could help me figure it out

Someone who wouldn’t dismiss it entirely for madness

I feel like Sailor Venus without Artemis

Like something bigger than me is compelling me to do something, but there’s no guidance

Something

And all this twisted love

That one time I was like well then I must be Jesus

That was madness

But it was caused by this feeling

I just want to be able to love all of them

Maybe I’m Aphrodite but my look has gone out of style

Because I low key want to smite people when they piss me off

Non-binary Aphrodite

I just want to make this thing proud of me so I can get on with my life

Sometimes I feel god-chosen

But in the Greek way where shit just goes wrong constantly because of it

Thing?

何となく、頑張る

It’s my motto

Constantly in the position to not achieve anything

It’s hard to know what to do ever

Also if you’re trying to get me to love myself I don’t think that will be possible

Life is so weird.