Elucidating Questions

It hurts to be on the losing team

The team of me that is losing so spectacularly

The universe subtly and not do subtly pushing me in the direction of someone who doesn’t even want to know I exist

Like I’m watching a video of you

And someone in the room just says Ramsey

Like I wasn’t already paying attention

Thinking of you and then there you are

It’s a mystery

Even when I try to ignore it it’s just there every day

There isn’t even anything I can do about it

Because I’ve tried explaining it away

It’s just insanity

Just madness

Probably something has broken in my brain that makes these connections

Because it’s impossible that I was actually right about any of my insanity before

I wish it would leave me be

Leave me to live

That strange list of artists that seem to revolve around eachother on my playlist like it’s the same day

Demons

And not even on my playlist

They find me

What a strange Kingdom to come to

Empty, but for me

It hurts but I will keep sending you love

You’re my only hope

The only hope I ever had

Seeing you say you love your job

Makes my heart set alight with love

Thank goodness

Be happy you foolish fool.