Elucidating Questions

Life, man

I am both terrified of it

And terrified of the alternative

And at least life I have somewhat figured out

Right?

Hungry? Eat, if you have food

Tired? Sleep

Submit your soul to the soul crushing gears of capitalism

Worry constantly about shelter just like our ancestors of hundreds of thousands of years ago

Whatever, right?

Feel sick all the time, barely make ends meet (not really)

Like I’m used to this hell

I have no fucking clue what the opposite is

No fucking clue

No one knows what death is or why it happens

Just that everything alive dies

No one knows if that’s it

I don’t feel like that’s it

There are far too many spirits for it to be it

But the unknown

And my fear of the nothing

Life is wild

I have no belief that it is good

It’s not boring

I remember a character in a show or video game saying that when a calamity was happening

At least it’s not boring

I do not know if I prefer wild to boring

Wouldn’t because I’ve never been bored but for a moment

Missed work again today

Fuck me

I feel so guilty

I always feel so guilty