Elucidating Questions

Being told to “get over it”, “move on”, “look on the bright side”

Is really triggering right now

And no I don’t mean that as Pop Speak

I mean that as in I have this visceral reaction it is tears and anxiety and pain and anger and anguish all wrapped into one

It is how disappointed I am in the world that I am being told to just be okay with my life

Has anyone telling me to be happy lived this life?

Now I know some do this willingly

I know

But damn, I wanted friends and stuff

Stuff being relationships I guess

Today I am hungry and wondering if I shouldn’t have spent money I didn’t have on food the other day

My last conversation was with my therapist on Tuesday

Before that it was that subpar Christmas

I don’t know, I would be appalled to find out someone I care about was living like me

Anything else was work or being a customer

Or being a tenant

Like yay?

They don’t have to go that far, but telling me to be happy anyways seems

And he’s somewhere warm and enjoying life

This world is so imbalanced

At least the bards succeeded

Happy

I’ll be happy

Happy for no reason like a right lunatic