Elucidating Questions

I want to go to bed

Because I’m tired of socialising negatively

But I don’t want to go to bed because someone is currently socialising with me negatively

And I’m so fucking lonely

And it’s so fucking twisted

Like thank god someone is making me feel like shit because I needed to talk to someone?

It’s fucked

I’m so sick of humans can we please save the good ones and throw the rest back into the sun to bake for a bit longer?

Myself included almost certainly

People seem to think I think I’m something good

Unlikely

Unlikely in this life where I have so much time to think to myself that I remember I’m going to die several times a day and my mind says

And this will be that last day you ever see

This was it

Your life

And it’s over now

And it’s fucked

My last day on Earth is going to look very like this day I’m sure

I’m going to be alone and starving for someone to talk to forever