Elucidating Questions

Describe a man who has positively impacted your life.

A man

No, the man

From In The End to the end

You knew where my complicated feelings came from

The ones with no names

Fighting, crawling, battlefield of emotions

If only you’d known how much you meant

It never really heals, the hole you left

Your screams my heart’s cries

The wound does not heal

You were the one I hid behind when my father was too much

When I was numb Numb was released

He was the footsteps I could not follow and you were the reassurance that I wasn’t the only one

Falling behind

You were the light that kept telling me to go on

And then you were gone

And I was in chaos

I miss you more than words can describe

My lifeline without life

It’s cursed and twisted

That your absence has taught me to better care for my inner turmoil

That I fly to you for reassurance when you found none

You’re my constant reminder to keep going

Constant reminder to just go one more day

I often wish you’d just gone one more day

I fight and yell and curse you for being a reminder sometimes

Sometimes I just want it all to end

But then I think of you

Or your music comes on

How I miss your point of view being a part of my life

It’s unfair I couldn’t save you when you’ve saved me more times than I could count.

But I know if love could have saved you it would have

Sometimes even when there is reassurance, we still find none.

I just hope you’re at peace

I hope wherever you are you know the demons aren’t you

That they never were