Elucidating Questions

A far too forward Japanese man

Told me I was pretty and beautiful

That men must be chasing me

I played the part and denied it as if I was embarrassed

Be brave and alone

This existence underneath the mask

That immediately thought how cruel it was for someone to say that to me when the only one who ever pursued me tried to kill me

32 almost 33

And nothing

I’m a fucking ghost

Be brave and alone

That’s what is repeated by the silence around me

Maybe I had too many friends in my past life

Maybe I was awful

I wish I had the strength to accept this life sentence of solitary

Where I’m never a person

Only an employee or a customer or a tenant

Maybe I deserve not to be a person too