Elucidating Questions

I want to wake up with enough energy to clean my house

So sick of living like this

Living with not enough

Not enough to do anything other than exist

I’m so exhausted all the time

It’s like I’m living half dead

And all around me people don’t understand

They think I’m making excuses

I simultaneously wish everyone had this disease and no one

Like Hitler deserved this

Maybe I was Hitler

I would deserve it if I was

But I don’t think the millions of people with this disease were all Hitler

Right?

But if people who got this deserved it then all the rich bastards would get it

I don’t know

Sometimes it’s easier to pretend I deserve this

Because if I don’t then why is it happening?

Why is my life like this if I don’t deserve this?

I don’t know where to go in this world without any answers

It seems pointless to but I search for a reason every day

Why my body has betrayed me so com