Elucidating Questions

Today I had a strange kind of energy

Despite not being able to sleep I found myself half an hour away from the end of my shift

And not dropping from exhaustion

Maybe those nasty little pretenders give me energy

Who knows

He’d have to be smarter than that to get me though

I wonder if we’ll ever meet face to face

The thought that I could gives me some hope

As hopeless as hope is

I wonder if you’re actually okay

It would be nice to know

It would be nice to know many things

Ah what a weird life

His car went by and I went back to the first

I remember the wolf. Do you remember the wolf?

Almost entirely alone these days

Me, by myself

Back then he came in and came in and went out

Back then I was torn between a wolf and a flame

Thought I had the right to be

Ah audacious me

I have been younger at older than younger

Younger me thought they had to be an adult

Older me broke magnificently into thousands of tiny regressed pieces

They say the first stays with you but I have two firsts

The one who has my heart and the one who had my body

He has my heart but doesn’t know it

He’ll never break it because I already pushed every button and he’s still here

But I’ll never know what it’s like to be loved

Still hopelessly engaged to the universe

I wonder if we’ll meet someday

I’d like to