Elucidating Questions

I wonder what kind I am

I’m sure I can’t see it

But everyone else seems to be a version of someone else

Like people who have the same energy

People who vibe

I never found anyone who feels the same as me

I know I’m not unique

I can’t be

Human beings are at once special and similar

I feel I must have been raised in the wrong place

The wrong culture

But I haven’t found one where I fit

Forever the hangnail of the group

Kind of there and kind of annoying

Until one day you get mad and cut it off

I used to live my life changing colours as I went

Forever trying to be the thing everyone else needed

But no one has ever really needed me

And I’m not about to bring a whole human being into the world to need me for the rest of its life

Not into this world

Where my would be children would suffer at the hands of three generations of destruction.

And really it isn’t right to bring something that needs you into being to feel needed

It would be nice to be needed

To fit somewhere