Elucidating Questions

I feel very left out

Everyone is sharing Barbie memes and quotes and I can’t relate

Because I had to ask my mum for money again this week

If I had the luxury of going to the movies

But I took myself to see the movies once or twice and I felt so alone in the theatre

So I guess I’ll just wait a while and break the law

But it’s a type of privilege

To be involved in pop culture

Pop culture is not free

Now I’m sure there’s going to be some human who reads this and announces

Well I don’t care about pop culture

And that’s great for you, really, but not me

I feel left behind

I have been struggling for so long and every indication that I am falling behind feels like a flashing neon sign

You’re too broken for this world

Too sick

Too neurodivergent

I never found my own people

And now I can’t even depressingly go to movies alone

If I had known this future awaited me I would have ended it right then

But now somehow I’m still here

And I can’t even participate.