Elucidating Questions

I wish I could give this away

Give it to someone who deserves to experience the world through a filter of pain

This weight

Whatever it is that is torturing my spine

Just pass it off

It’s yours now.

I dare not wish it just go away

It’s like another living thing has control of my body

Causing pain, stiffness, confusion, exhaustion

I just wish I had control of my body again

Back when I could work eight hours and then stay up another eight.

Sometimes I feel so awful that for a moment I believe I’m dying and am gripped with terror

That this could be all my life ever is

I wish I could give it to someone worse than me