Elucidating Questions

Every song that has a you

Becomes you

That is the yous that are about loving you

How many times have I told you

A future without you is no future

Is a future without meaning

I could fold it into other words

I wonder if anyone recognises it?

Locked away as it is in this strange internet hole

I think of you at the oddest moments

I wish I could enter an endless dream with you

We’d sing the song of truth together

How I wish we could sing together

I have so many pretenses you must hate every one

How I wish I could present myself to you simply as a me that wants nothing

But, love, I am human

I am made up of wants

Isn’t that living though?

How I wish I wish I could wish a wish that sticks

This morning I had a message from

Josh Ramsay

How the internet likes to trick me I knew already it was fake but just for a moment

I’m probably something awful for loving him and having that moment

Desperately loving an idea

This shape I’ve created that could be human if it would just speak

Speak damn you speak

No I shouldn’t damn the shape of you I’ve idea’d

It’s all I have really

All I have to direct this love that goes no where

Sometimes I feel guilty but it really isn’t as though I’m harming anyone

Putting love into a hole on the web

Here I can say I love you I love you I love you

Put it somewhere other than my head

It’s nice to put it down

Otherwise I’d feel very alone