Elucidating Questions

I made it to 32.

The nasty voices called me when I was 15 and I made it

They called to me at 16, 17, 18

Still I lived

I made it to 20

Never thought I’d make it this far

Never saw a road beyond an end

The voices called me when I was 27.

Somehow I survived

I’ll never know how I survived

Saw 30

Aiming for 40?

I won’t let these feelings, these voices, these dark thoughts that are not me, pull me down into the deep

Never thought I’d make it this long

Every day is a bonus day

Even when it’s heavy I still pull myself up just enough to breathe

Just keep breathing