Elucidating Questions

Suicide

Is not beautiful

Is not ugly

Is rather a sun that has collapsed into itself

Its sheer mass lost in a hole so void

Of blackness and destruction

Of pain and hurt

All the sorrow and pain you felt handed off to loved ones and people who didn’t even know they loved you until it was too late

Why did you hand your pain to your loved ones?

How could you choose to share such a thing
And it consumes

The void that grows as the sorrow flows into it

The explosion reverberating into space

Do other stars collapse in response?

I won’t go

You won’t have me

I’ll stay here kicking and screaming I’ll drag him along with me through life

Somehow I’ll defeat this beast

No super nova, no black hole

Can I claim a quiet death where people miss me with no shock or pain

Just the knowledge I lived

Can I ask you to stay with me?

Just remember,

No surrender

We can get out of this alive