Elucidating Questions

Maybe I’ve been alone for so long I’m no longer human

I used to call it solitary confinement

Only meeting humans with scripts

Only meeting humans with small nothing talk

Days spent alone without ever seeing another person

Maybe it changed my brain

Maybe I’m not like them anymore

Maybe that’s why I can’t relate to any of them anymore

My only human interaction today was being berated on Facebook

I crave human interaction but it’s almost always me being berated on Facebook

Is that all human interaction is?

Did I get confused somewhere?

Maybe I was wrong to want something gentle and kind

Maybe there is no such thing as community, communication, togetherness

I wish I hadn’t been born like this

Trapped in a house all day long, too sick to do anything

I wish I’d been born like one of those people who climbs mountains and goes on trips around the globe to climb mountains

Would it be beneath me to beg the universe for something