Elucidating Questions

Without it

Every little thing that’s wrong with my life piles up

Without it

I stumble into the water

I can’t feel like myself, I can’t just wait until it’s better

I just suffer

More aware of the aches the pains

More aware of the can’ts and impossibles

It would only take a drop in the bucket for me to feel better

But no one has any to spare

I wouldn’t be stuck like this if this world was better

And I dwell on the stuckness

Dipping into the waters of sadness

I just want to feel

Not even better

I just want to feel

Less useless, less of a burden, less of a problem to be dealt with

I don’t know how to ask for what I need

And there’s no one to give it to me