Elucidating Questions

When I see happy endings now

I am no longer filled with joy for the people whose ending came true

It feels pointless and I have so little energy for happy endings

If they were in front of me I would be happy for them

But it’s just another story of a happy ending

And my endings are very rarely happy

More twisted stories about terrible things that led to okay things

My one happy ending after not knowing where I would live was finding this place

I haven’t ever really had the cards line up in my favour

Or rather to say not so much that a story could be told of it

More or less rolling 15 over and over and over again.

Not terrible

Not note worthy

Haven’t rolled a 20 in a while

No full houses here

Everything

All the time

I see everyone else’s happy endings now

I’m not jealous

Rather just say ‘that’s nice’ and continue on

I’d like to see a happy ending

But I suppose I don’t want to go through the shit that precedes it anyways